A Much Needed Update

Hello, my friends! 


As you know, I've been posting a lot more on Tumblr lately because my posts haven't been the happy kind you all like to read. :( And they would sound rather hypocritical with the blog title, don't you think? =) 


Quite a few things have happened that I haven't posted about on here:

1. I've been pulled out of Tuesday co-op (violin, geography, and Bible study) due to my grades and my other extracurricular activities. 
2. I've been thoroughly enjoying LifeTeen choir and am considering cantoring at the next LifeTeen Mass. 
3. I've made a very good friend (who is going to dinner with us tomorrow night!!!!!). 
4. I crossed 35,000 views on YouTube. 
5. I've been dealing with my first hate mail. >.<
6. I won my first photo contest!!

I got some bad grades in chemistry (as in C's...that's unacceptable in our house) and I had to quit Tuesday co-op because we just couldn't do the extra day out of the house; I already have dance, gymnastics, choir, and LifeTeen, so I have a lot of stuff out of the house. I'll miss it. A lot. But God's got a plan!!

LifeTeen choir is AWESOME!!!! My friends Faith and Brianna are AMAZING singers and their voices make mine sound like a dying frog (which isn't bad; I really can't sing). They keep saying they aren't that good, but I could tell them otherwise...They keep telling me (along with the choir director an another close friend of mien) that I should try cantoring...so I've prayerfully been considering that. The next LifeTeen Mass happens to fall on the feast of Christ the King, so that would be a great day to cantor. 

This is Faith. 

In a matter of two months (that's as long as I've known her), she has become one of my closest friends. Like, ever. I completely lost it at LifeTeen on Sunday. We were talking about change. Some of you may know that I've had four relatives die over the span of two years. It was terrible. Another close friend of mine kind of ditched me. Those changes really took a toll on me on Sunday when I started talking about them. I don't usually talk about changes because A.) I don't usually have to, and B.) I don't like to. At all. 


I didn't cry when I was talking about them. "While I was talking about them" is the key phrase. 

Mrs. F, one of the core members, came up to me towards the end of the meeting and said, "Trini, what's wrong?" I said, "Nothing", as I always do...and then I lost it. I absolutely lost it. I told her about how I felt ditched, lost, unloved...it came spilling out. 

Mrs. F. did all she could to comfort me. And it really helped. She had to help clean everything up before she left, though, and I had to leave as well. On my way out, Faith put her arm around me and asked me if I was okay. I answered honestly, "No." And I told her about the whole deal (without crying). And about Tuesday co-op. And about everything else. And even though she's three years older than I am, you know what she did? She gave me a hug. She didn't say anything. Then she looked at me and said, "I'm not gonna say all this cliche stuff because it'll sound silly. You know, 'It'll get better,' 'That's how life is,' and all that. I've had all that said to me and it doesn't help at all." 


I told her that I hate crying because I feel like a wimp. She said something like, "Girl, do you know how much I cry? You're not a wimp." 

I told her about how sometimes I want to scream at my parents, at my sister, and sometimes, even at God, but I can't (and won't) because I'd get in big trouble and I'd feel really bad. Know what she said? She didn't admonish me. She didn't say, "Good. You would get in a lot of trouble." Instead, she said, "Scream into your pillow. I do it all the time. It helps." And trust me. As crazy or goofy or silly as it sounds, it does. 

And I'm sure you know this, but it is SO great to have a friend who just listens. Doesn't reprimand, doesn't criticize, doesn't laugh. And you wanna know something? I AM SO incredibly blessed to have more than one friend like that! (Eden, I'm doing a post about you soon.) 

About the YouTube view count? Enough said. 

About the hate mail...just click on the link. I don't feel like explaining it again. 

THE PHOTO CONTEST!!! IT! WAS! SO! COOL! I won by a whopping 11 votes! I didn't win any prize; that's fine by me. :) Here's the winning photo. 

That's all for now! Bye!